16 December 2007

Why I was born in the wrong era

As a car alarm wails outside my window, I can't help but think that I dwell in my own little world sometimes. It's a madhouse, a Victorian, Bohemian, retro-fied existence that bears little resemblance to what is outside. I go out with beer drinkers and order kir royales. I collect cameos and fantasize about high-waisted skirts and blouses with ruffled collars. I wish I had a shiny brass old-fashioned key to open the door to my apartment. I love red/black roses and old storybooks. I am Eloise meets Audrey Hepburn meets Jane Eyre meets Jessica Mitford meets Joan Jett meets Sara Crewe meets June Carter meets Lucy Westenra in Dracula...and I long to set my dinner table like this:I would decorate every surface with Black Magic roses accessorized with hanging Swarovski crystals.I would dress like Natalka Burian, who owns the East Village vintage store/bar "The Hanger" and was last month's "Lucky Girl" in Lucky Magazine. I can't find any pictures of her to post here, but she resembles Zooey Deschanel and reminds me (from what I've read) of a grown-up Eloise. Oh, and the names of the cocktails served at her bar include the "Jackie O," the "Halston," and the "Hepburn." And maybe I would add this fantastic necklace by glitteryblue made out of old watchworks.Or this one, to remind me that no, no, no, I must never give up. My life was made to be a mad tea party with meaning and cuddles under lots of blankets and kind words and good books and true people, and that is that.

2 comments:

sparrowsoul said...

i truly do understand your frustration... i have wished, for a very long time, now, that i could have been anais nin's best friend and confidante... i want to wear flapper dresses and long, LONG necklaces and my hair in pin curls, with tons of smoky kohl around my eyes... i also desperately want a perfectly placed mole on my cheek... ah, well, i live in the now and have to settle for my "preppy meets bohemian by way of san francisco" style... it fits in much better when riding the subway...

sparrowsoul said...

oh, and one more thing - black magic roses are my favorites (along with gardenias...) i held a HUGE bouquet of them when i got married to my now ex-husband...